Today I cried
Before the day ends:
HAPPY EASTER! Praise God, Jesus lives!
Despite that I had to wake up @ 4am and stand in the cold @ 6am with my hair still wet, I was so happy today. Nothing can make me any happier than knowing that Jesus (fully knowing God’s whole plan) gave up His perfect life for me so that I will have that chance to be with Him in Heaven. Isn’t that wonderful?
So the reason I cried is because we were singing a song during praise&worship today during the service. Lucky for you, I found it on youtube (it WOULD be on youtube).
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubGCISQQ7Zo
The Power of the Cross by Keith & Kristyn Getty
“Oh, to see the pain
Written on Your face,
Bearing the awesome weight of sin.
Every bitter thought, every evil deed
Crowning Your bloodstained brow.”
I loved it. Thank you to whoever suggested on singing that song today. It’s beautiful and it helped me grasp the reality of Jesus sacrificing His life for me.
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But am I truly showing how thankful I am? Lately, I’ve been thinking about whether I am giving my all or not. Too be honest, it scares me. Because I know the answer is that I am not. Am I giving up everything ungodly? Am I pursuing to live a Christ-like life? Am I considering everything that is earthly to be worthless in my life? Every second, every day, every MOMENT, am I glorifying Him? I have always wondered “what did I do to make Him proud”. What exactly is holding me back? Nothing should. Nothing stopped the Philippian church, right?
I have been reading this book for a while now. A lot of verses are underlined and most is about suffering for Christ
“I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.”
——Phil. 1:20-21“Whatever happens, as citizens of heaven live in a manner wothy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in the one Spirit, striving together with one accord for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God. For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on Him but also to suffer for Him”
——Phil. 1:27-29
Easier said than done, right? It’s hard to suffer. It’s crazy scary. A lot can happen to you when proclaiming God’s Word. If I’m feeling too comfortable, I’m not doing enough for God. He gave His life for me and I should be doing the same.
Now, this upcoming week is going to be crazy because of school. But I will keep devotions and prayer in my schedule. I just won’t be blogging about it (: I’ll pop in once in a while with a verse.
My life is His & His alone.
-Jainah.
2 years ago