Wake. Up. Call.
So, it was around 11pm & I was going through the endless pages and pages of updates from Tumblr, until I noticed my Bible. & no joke, I felt like it was calling me. I haven’t done my devos yet, so that’s probably why my heart was longing for it so much. Just before I decided to start my devos, people started IM-ing me. “Aw crap, not now.” & during those conversations, I felt freaking bad. SO. They’re on hold right now. I told them I’d be right back. I picked up my Bible, & prayed. Prayed for minimal distractions, prayed for open eyes and a willing heart, prayed for a humbling experience. Boy, did I get one..
Instead of searching the devo sites, it felt right to just open it to wherever I was led to. I first opened it to Psalm 119. I laughed. “Yeah, I know, God. Your Word is fricking important. Rub it in my face. Can we try again?” I closed my Bible & opened it a second time. I first saw the large number, 43. Check the book: Isaiah. Subtitle? “Israel’s Only Savior.” Subtitle #2? “God’s Mercy and Israel’s Unfaithfulness.” Alright. God’s gonna pound some stuff into my head— I know it. Here we go.
Holy CRAP, my heart got a beating. The whole chapter is pretty much the Lord Himself speaking. Every other verse or so, it’ll say “this is what the Lord says,” or “…declares the Lord,” or “For I am the Lord.” It really was God speaking. Really. He talked about how He cared for Israel. A lot. How He is always with them. How HE is in control. Mind you, this was only the first chunk of it…
[10]”You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “and my servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me. [11]I, even I, am the Lord, and apart from me there is no savior. [12]I have revealed and saved and proclaimed— I, and not some foreign god among you. You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “that I am God. [13]Yes, and from ancient days I am he. No one can deliver out of my hand. When I act, who can reverse it?” (v. 10-13; NIV)
God REALLY spoke with authority here. I especially loved verse 11. “I, even I, am the Lord, and apart from me there is no savior.” AHHH. God is so good. Who better to trust than Someone who will never hurt you NOR backstab you? His methods to save us are effortless. Real love.
Okay, 2nd half of the chapter. Let’s go.
This is basically where God pwned me. LOL. It was awesome! Really. It was really convicting. God was still speaking to Israel & basically saying, “Guys. Let’s backtrack. I was the One who created your path through waters. I was the One who fought back the soldiers. I was the One who provided water for you to drink. What have you done?”
Pwnage time:
[22] “Yet you have not called upon me, O Jacob, you have not wearied yourselves for me, O Israel. [23]You have not brought me sheep for burnt offerings, nor honored me with your sacrifices. I have not burdened you with grain offerings nor wearied you with demands for incense. [24]You have not bought any fragrant calamus for me, or lavished on me the fat of your sacrifices. But you have burdened me with your sins and wearied me with your offenses. [25]”I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more.” (v. 22-25)
Dang. He’s the reason why I’m breathing right now. Why I can read His word. Why I can manage to type this up & share with whoever’s stumbled upon this tumblr of ours (or tumbled? HAAAH). I’ve had all this time during spring break & I haven’t devoted much time to Him. My one & only song was about sacrifice, goodness. -___- The end of my song: “My heart. My soul. My life.” Not exactly what I’ve been giving up. He’s gets probably, oh, 5% of my day? That’s terrible.
I’m thankful for this. That I can be held accountable, finally, and really work on this. I’m excited for what we’ll reap with our “dlog” HAHAHAHA I don’t even know how to say that. LOL. But, yes. This will be awesome. :) God’s blessed me with you! (Cue: “AWWW”)
Kbye.
—Loris.
